..::~JaSoN~::..

breaking down, falling apart.

2012-01-25T09:16:00.000+08:00

2012-01-13T22:47:00.001+08:00

things will never be the same once damage has been done.

posted from Bloggeroid

2012-01-03T12:52:00.001+08:00

I am very scared. Am i just too sensitive? What am i scared of?

posted from Bloggeroid

2011-12-30T16:53:00.001+08:00

It certainly does not feel good as I pulled that sticker out. It felt like I was ripping out my own heart as I pulled.

2011-12-20T09:35:00.001+08:00

I dont know why, but I feel real happy when I see you smile or laugh.

2011-10-27T08:51:00.003+08:00

its not that i dont care about you anymore. i still have feelings for you. i dont want to make things too awkward. i also have many things to worry about. i am not as carefree as people see. i still think of you all the time. i've said that if letting you go is the only thing i can do to make you happy, i would let you go.

2011-10-20T20:42:00.001+08:00

I don't, but what can I do?

2011-10-16T00:27:00.000+08:00

I mean it when I said that I am happy when you are happy.

2011-10-15T16:45:00.001+08:00

Someone spoke to me yesterday with you being the topic. it made me think from a number of directions.

2011-10-13T08:38:00.004+08:00

why do i always screw up?

and i have one, without looking for it.

if you remember, there is this occasion whereby we went on fb and qiuyu sir came by to say, "Jason, stop distracting R*******. r u going to take care of her for the rest of her life if she fails her A levels??"

That really woke me up. I really did study harder, my GPA did go up(though the improvement is not a big one).

I promised to cook for you, to run/train with you, to walk in the rain with you, i was even planning a trip to a place you wanted to go.

You have guided me , comforted me through those darkest day of the past 6 months. Now, its a miracle to wish for, for it to continue till we grow old, till our hands tremble, till our hair turns grey.

i am back

2011-10-11T15:04:00.004+08:00

with bad news. It's over. I dont have the knowledge nor skills to maintain a relationship. It sucks.

for once, i thought/felt that i could narrow the massive difference between us.

her tests are everywhere, it was hard for us to meet up, hard for me to narrow that gap. narrowing the gap would require time, a luxury we didnt have.

when she said that she wanted to go to afa, i told her i would go with her, to step into her world, to know her more than before. seems like i wont get to do that.

on that fateful day, it was also the day of my race. i didnt want her to worry when she asked how was the race. i injured my ankle and had many crashes.

she closed her tumblr. maybe thats her way of telling me that its over.

she is the smarter one. she is able to spot conflicts in humans, spot conflicts and things that i cant see.

thats her.

we are the opposite of each other, thats what i thought could help us get together, to patch up our weaknesses with each other's strength. but it became our nemesis.

2011-07-28T22:43:00.000+08:00

May she get well soon ):

neglect

2011-06-22T01:01:00.002+08:00

I have been kept busy with my dear girlfriend, training, Red Cross, school, projects coming in non-stop and many other commitments.

I feel really tired but at the same time energised. very funny feeling.

hehe

2011-06-01T00:49:00.001+08:00

3rd month, it grows with every moment, every second. love the surprises she gives to me. <3

2011-05-15T22:37:00.000+08:00

I will always be here, beside you.

♡

2011-05-11T00:03:00.002+08:00

2011-05-09T01:15:00.000+08:00

More about ORANGESKIES

2011-05-03T12:11:00.002+08:00

Many of my friends know who ORANGESKIES is.

She, yes, she. She is my girlfriend. No photos of her here. (we are shy :P)

Thats all I have for you guys now :)

2011-05-03T11:49:00.003+08:00

HI ORANGESKIES.
LOVE YOU. ♡

2011-05-02T11:43:00.001+08:00

HI PONKEY!

Been happy for the past 6 days :D

2011-04-11T00:01:00.001+08:00

i want this to last forever :D

Feels great

2011-04-04T00:15:00.001+08:00

to finally let it out of my chest. :)

Chris Medina - What Are Words

2011-03-23T23:35:00.001+08:00

2011-03-22T13:18:00.002+08:00

2011-03-17T23:25:00.000+08:00

sigh

2011-03-13T23:20:00.000+08:00

TOTALLY FORGOT THAT I AM DONE WITH THIS CURRENT "CHALLENGE" AHAHAHAHA!

Day 13:

2011-03-12T08:24:00.000+08:00

What is the worst type of pain you have ever felt?

so painful, that i cant say.

Day 12:

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Write an apology letter to someone.

I do hope for your forgiveness. Sorry.

Day 11:

2011-03-10T23:07:00.000+08:00

Write a letter to someone who has hurt you recently.

Thank you for waking me up.

Day 10:

2011-03-09T08:51:00.001+08:00

Who is the one person that you have hurt the most?

Could it be you?

Day 9:

2011-03-08T09:26:00.001+08:00

Who is the one person that has hurt you the most?

Hurt me the most? So many people.
No names okay? I want to put this behind.

Day 8:

2011-03-07T00:28:00.000+08:00

If you could redo one thing that has caused hurt in your life, what would it be?

Just going all out? Enough of holding back.

Day 7:

2011-03-06T01:48:00.002+08:00

What was the saddest time of your life? Why?

Day 6:

2011-03-05T00:01:00.001+08:00

What’s the worst thing that you’ve done to your significant other?

Worst thing? Hurting them with my stupidity, super dense mind. yea.

My truthful answers always seems like stupid answers, answers that are there just to get the question over and done with. Those answers, are the answers from the bottom of my heart. Those answers to my significant other, are some of the most truthful answers.

Few people know the amount of truthfulness in my answers. Those people, are the people closest to me. Not my family. But my really really close friends.

Day 5:

2011-03-04T08:25:00.001+08:00

What’s the worst thing that your significant other has done to you?

Not trusting me. But then again. its a cycle, like, how to trust you when you dont trust me? vicious cycle.

Day 4:

2011-03-03T23:04:00.001+08:00

What’s the worst thing you’ve ever said to someone else?

An entire string of profanities.

need you now

2011-03-03T00:52:00.005+08:00

Day 3:

2011-03-02T11:03:00.001+08:00

What’s the worst thing someone has ever said to you?

i forgot. i dont remember this kind of crap.

2011-03-02T04:42:00.000+08:00

here I am, unable to sleep. I do feel the heartache

2011-03-01T23:13:00.002+08:00

I do think that I made you upset.

I do not know what are you thinking of.

I am very dumb.

I am bad with words.

People say that the hole between the chin and nose must be used properly. I do think that I have failed terribly in that.

I am sorry.

I have 2 papers tomorrow.

I do want to talk things out.

We need to talk.

LIVING IS SUCH A CHORE

2011-03-01T22:00:00.001+08:00

Day 2:

2011-03-01T09:55:00.001+08:00

Write a letter to an ex.

May you find someone better than me.

Day 1:

2011-02-28T17:10:00.002+08:00

Say something to someone who has hurt you recently.

my memory is so bad that i cant remember who has hurt me recently, but i do remember the painful times, though its not recent.

okay, here i go.

I figured out what i might have done wrong. why use the word might? cos we never talked about it again.

2011-02-27T20:16:00.001+08:00

It seems that i would only blog when i come upon these blog challenges. so yeah. i went to google for some. :D

13 DAY PAIN/HURT CHALLENGE

Day 1: Say something to someone who has hurt you recently.
Day 2: Write a letter to an ex.
Day 3: What’s the worst thing someone has ever said to you?
Day 4: What’s the worst thing you’ve ever said to someone else?
Day 5: What’s the worst thing that your significant other has done to you?
Day 6: What’s the worst thing that you’ve done to your significant other?
Day 7: What was the saddest time of your life? Why?
Day 8: If you could redo one thing that has caused hurt in your life, what would it be?
Day 9: Who is the one person that has hurt you the most?
Day 10: Who is the one person that you have hurt the most?
Day 11: Write a letter to someone who has hurt you recently.
Day 12: Write an apology letter to someone.
Day 13: What is the worst type of pain you have ever felt?

Day Ten:

2011-02-27T12:44:00.001+08:00

One confession.

(@SEESEEPEEPEE: no i am not gonna say that haha!)

i am a jerk can?

Yesterday,

2011-02-26T16:44:00.003+08:00

I bumped into the grandmother of my kindergarden classmate. And the same old thing that happens, "I cant recognise you if you dont call out to me". Its so funny. I havent seen that classmate of mine for the past 14 years. Even if we see each other on the streets, we wouldnt be able to recognise each other.
Its so funny how we managed to be so close, simply because our grandmothers used to go out together all the time, bringing us, the 2 young grandchildren out.
And it came to my mind during that conversation that even old people do change, she and her husband are still very active and are now christians.

Day Nine: .

2011-02-26T14:39:00.001+08:00

Two smileys that describe your life right now

Smileys? Must they smile?

@.@ D;

Day Eight:

2011-02-25T17:48:00.001+08:00

Three turn ons.

hmm.
never thought of this.

turn ons in what way?

Maybe you guys can give me some comments and i try to do it?

Day Seven:

2011-02-24T16:45:00.002+08:00

Four turn offs.

1) People with no sense of shame.(picking nose in public, etc)
2) tatoos are fine, but tatoos + trying to be funny in a not so funny sense? Big no no.
3) I am protective of those who are close to me. I will go crazy.
4) People who are too much.

@SEESEEPEEPEE

2011-02-23T19:26:00.000+08:00

I know that it takes time.

I am worried about you.

Day Six:

2011-02-23T19:20:00.000+08:00

Five people who mean a lot (in no order whatsoever)

@A__S
@HAMSTER
@TKX
@SEESEEPEEPEE
boss

Day Five:

2011-02-22T09:33:00.002+08:00

Six things you wish you’d never done.

1) Being a bad boy
2) Failing to communicate with some people.
3) Making wrong decisions.

Day Four:

2011-02-21T09:28:00.002+08:00

Seven things that cross your mind a lot.

1) people i really care about
2) studies
3) money
4) relationships
5) my future
6) my health
7) -breaks down-

Day Three:

2011-02-20T12:05:00.001+08:00

Eight ways to win your heart.

I actually do not plan to write this. @SEESEEPEEPEE will know why.

I can only tell you that its not tough at all.

Day Two:

2011-02-19T11:52:00.002+08:00

Nine things about yourself.

1) I am really random sometimes.
2) I do have mood swings.
3) I am 20 this year. WOW, time flies.
4) I still love photography.
5) I am constantly torn between this and that, that and this.
6) I am constantly worried about many things and those people i really care about.

cant think of the last 3. sigh.

Day One:

2011-02-18T11:37:00.003+08:00

Ten things you want to say to ten different people right now.

can only manage 8 people.

10 day challenge

2011-02-17T22:59:00.001+08:00

Got this from @kexin's blog. may not be day after day as its exam period right now. the nail biting 2 weeks every half a year.

Day One: Ten things you want to say to ten different people right now.
Day Two: Nine things about yourself.
Day Three: Eight ways to win your heart.
Day Four: Seven things that cross your mind a lot.
Day Five: Six things you wish you’d never done.
Day Six: Five people who mean a lot (in no order whatsoever)
Day Seven: Four turn offs.
Day Eight: Three turn ons.
Day Nine: Two smileys that describe your life right now.
Day Ten: One confession

its been raining over here for more than a day.

2011-01-31T18:43:00.002+08:00

and my mind, my heart is all lost in the foggy, rainy day.

these past few weeks, i have seen how fragile life is, i have seen how circumstances change the very next moment, how unexpected life can get.

we come to earth to suffer. only when we die are we released from our sufferings.

and to my close friends, i have seen how people can die the very next moment. so, i would like to say here that if i were to die earlier than you all, please, do not cry. everyone will die, its only a matter of time.

2011-01-15T10:12:00.002+08:00

I dont feel like blogging anymore. I have no idea why am I feeling this way. I am too confused.

So many

2011-01-04T09:52:00.001+08:00

things have happened. It felt like a dream. It felt so unreal.

RCYC 2010 The RED Race!

2010-12-21T11:11:00.005+08:00

Good job umpires!

Love,

2010-12-12T23:00:00.002+08:00

Its a heartbreaker.

I have given up and I will not waste time and energy on it.

Yes.

2010-12-12T16:13:00.001+08:00

Its December. another crazy month. RCYC, common tests, recovery. etc.

stress.

Boo.

2010-12-08T15:01:00.002+08:00

if only. . . . . .

2010-12-03T03:04:00.000+08:00

2010-11-27T21:02:00.000+08:00

gotta wake up at 4am tomorrow which means less than 7 hours of sleep even if i sleep now.

2010-11-23T22:55:00.000+08:00

life is really fragile.

2010-11-23T08:59:00.000+08:00

i am in pain. i am bruised. someone fucked my brain. i am going crazy.

Love Language

2010-11-18T08:13:00.001+08:00

I believe that the viral video in facebook entitled 'Love Language' has affected many people(including me).

2010-11-10T08:23:00.001+08:00

2010-11-10T00:11:00.002+08:00

勉强是没有幸福的 - there is no happiness if it is forced

love/like this post at the bottom of this post if you find that its true. dislike it if you find that its not true.

2010-11-08T19:42:00.000+08:00

Dont bother to watch. just listen.

2010-10-26T15:19:00.001+08:00

Life gets pretty much sucky when you know that your friends are doing their last semester in school when you have x more semesters to go.

7 weeks.

2010-10-25T19:29:00.002+08:00

its funny how 7 weeks pass by so fast. Today is my last day of holiday. yes. you didnt see wrongly. i do not have lessons on mondays! but my others days are like so thumbs down. oh well. just have to survive semester by semester. :)

How true. . . .

2010-10-22T23:01:00.000+08:00

One step at a time, its a fact. its no good to skip steps.

upside down

2010-10-18T23:17:00.002+08:00

so many things have happened in the past 5 days, so many things have changed.

it is super shocking to find that its the last week of our 7 weeks holiday. i do feel that i have done injustice to myself for wasting so much time these 7 weeks, for injuring my damn ankle 2 weeks ago and as of now i have not completely recovered from it.

blocked nose

2010-10-13T22:58:00.003+08:00

I do feel terrible for not updating regularly. But it seems that I have lost touch with blogging and that I dont really have the drive to blog.

I do feel pissed off with my sprained ankle. Having a gorgeous bike at home but not being able to ride it to the best of my ability really sucks.

a photo of my then 4 hour old bike.

setup and settings have changed more than a dozen times after this photo was taken.

regrets?

2010-10-10T22:54:00.000+08:00

so what if i regret what i did? there is no undo button in life.

its been a long time

2010-10-01T22:15:00.001+08:00

since i last posted. i was busy with F1 and riding my bike. its a playful bike. i am also getting lazy to type.

"Happiness

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comes in many forms — in the company of good friends, in the feeling you get when you make someone else’s dream come true, or in the promise of hope renewed. It’s okay to let yourself be happy because you never know how fleeting that happiness might be."
– One Tree Hill

Red Bull.

2010-09-20T20:22:00.001+08:00

great.

2010-09-20T10:18:00.001+08:00

i am sick again.

So bad.

2010-09-15T00:10:00.000+08:00

things never manage to stick to my plan. but oh well, there are things beyond our control.

Plans,

2010-09-08T22:11:00.002+08:00

they never seem to go on track. They love derailing.

September

2010-09-05T22:30:00.000+08:00

Tonsillitis,

2010-09-05T14:24:00.002+08:00

my good friend is back after leaving me alone for 17 months. been down since Wednesday and still down. Today is Sunday. Wednesday is the paper. I hate this.

secret project.

2010-09-02T20:10:00.002+08:00

pardon me for the poor photoshoping skill. :D

so bad

2010-09-01T22:46:00.002+08:00

I really feel bad when me, a first aider cant do anything to help the injured. it really breaks my heart. sigh.

shucks.

2010-09-01T10:45:00.001+08:00

mr sore throat is here to find me after 2 weeks of curry fish head.

exam is exactly 1 week away.

so bad.

2010-08-29T20:58:00.001+08:00

upside down life.

2010-08-29T12:40:00.000+08:00

wrist is still crying.

Ouch.

2010-08-28T23:58:00.001+08:00

I should take a break from riding. My wrist is crying right now. Can someone teach me to be left handed?

2010-08-28T12:06:00.001+08:00

DANG!

2010-08-28T11:54:00.001+08:00

So tired yesterday that i didnt blog. maybe i should start riding long distance again. wrist does not feel right. D:

Heartbreaker

2010-08-26T23:19:00.001+08:00

Nah, its just a random title as this song is playing right now on my player.

Hey Miss Christina Choy, I am not sure if you are reading this, but this crazy guy will be a phone call away, if you ever want/need to talk to him. He is willing to swallow all your rants.

Darn.

2010-08-25T18:56:00.001+08:00

Had a crash. Sigh.

2010-08-24T23:04:00.001+08:00

I cant believe i searched for this video after last watching it 3 years ago.

2010-08-24T22:55:00.001+08:00

"Sometimes, the smallest things take up the most room in your heart. " -Winnie The Pooh

Raindrops - Regina Spektor

2010-08-24T19:33:00.001+08:00

Nikon D70 vs Canon 400D Durability Test*

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